Mad mad world

Just an update of those of you that are still around, I'm on a hiatus at the moment, should be blogging next month. Had some personal issues to deal with. Instagram, twitter and Facebook are also on hold. Back soon.

Confident

Wow. It seems like ages since I last posted. Between college, a new job, wedding planning and the general agro that comes with being a 20 year old girl I haven’t had any time to give my blog any love. I am aiming to post at least one post a month for the time being until I can dedicate more time to my blog.

For the past month I’ve been having what can only be deemed as the first crisis of my twenties. Here I am about to get married but when I put on my wedding dress I can’t love myself, it’s ridiculous! As I stood there all I could think about was the moment someone turned to me and said “You’re not going to walk down the aisle that size are you?”. That one comment stuck with me for so long until I saw the pictures from my current blog post. YEAH I have a double chin, YEAH I have a big belly and fat thighs and all those other things I’m taught to hate, but what gives anyone else the right to criticize another’s body? IF it so happens that I want to change my body it will be for myself and of my own accord, not because someone else thinks so.

So that’s my message this month, love yourself, no matter what shape, size, colour or whatever! If someone else has a problem with you being you, screw them! I’m never going to be super slim, but I’m never going to be happy trying to satisfy someone else’s idea of what I should be. Make yourself
happy.

On a lighter note, with the recent spate of gloriously freezing sunshine we’ve been having, I decided to go for a boho vibe this week, with just a touch of glam. Gone are the days where pearls are for old ladies and oysters, IM FEELING PEARLS, especially the headpiece I was wearing. This will become a regular part of my wardrobe, I don’t care how many people were staring on the bus.
Until next month just remember to love yourself for who you are, not for what people want you to be.

P.S All photos were taken on a Nokia Lumia 930.

Glasses are from Primark.

 



Rings are from Asos.

 

Shorts are from New Look



Kimono is from Alice and you at Asos.

Wearing my favourite Ruby Woo

 

Got these shoes on sale at New Look but found a similar pair at Asos.

 

As usual I'm wearing tights from Pretty Polly.

Crown is from Asos

Boob tube is from New Look.

 

Ambition

I love the feeling of putting an outfit together, then taking stuff off, changing things and then stepping back and watching it all come together. I’d taken a hiatus from my blog due to my incessant need to better myself. I’ve also been experimenting with my fashion. Breaking basic “big girl” rules, i.e. wearing horizontal stripes, crop tops and shorts. I learnt that no matter what size or shape, there’s a lot of things that look good, screw what people say. If I wanna wear shorts and a shirt I can, and I’ll look good doing it too. I hope over time I can inspire others to develop the same confidence I’m gaining.  I may never be the most popular blogger out here, but if I can help just one person, I’ll be the happiest.

BIG IS BEAUTIFUL, but not just big, every, single, shape is beautiful. Don’t stand to hear anything but.

My outfit today isn’t something I would usually wear, but I was browsing online and it just stood out for me. So I bought two! Nice confidence booster. Does anyone else have arms too long for all their clothes? I combat it by rolling up my sleeves all the time, but it can get annoying, I just want to have a long sleeve to that I actually wear as long sleeves, on the plus side my forearms are now impervious to the cold.

Black hides a multitude of sins including the BBQ sauce I dropped on my dress.

I think I just found my new LBD.

 



Dress is from Missguided, I bought two, one in black and one in oxblood.

Belt from New Look.

 

Hoops are from Asos.

 

 

Two weeks

The photos I took today really opened my eyes, and in a way it was some much needed therapy. Most places I look in the media show me “perfect” bodies without imperfections, and over time this has led to some major self loathing. So taking that emotion and turning it into something positive feels amazing. I was actually able to look at myself in the mirror for longer than 10 seconds without hating myself. I hope that if I can do this, I’ll be helping people everywhere to do the same. Learning to love our body ripples, curves and stretch marks.

So today was my first real shoot for the blog and it had taken way longer than I anticipated. We had to take a break halfway through to get gai bao and bubble tea – tasty. My favourite item is my fedora hat; I find it very versatile as it can go from one outfit to another no problem. This outfit is something I would wear in the daytime to college but could go to night time with a pair of heels, some accessories and a serious blazer. I did my own hair but my awesome best friend Aaliyah White did my make up.



The shirt is vintage, I found it at the back of my dads cupboard, so I asked for it. I found one like it on New Look that would work just as well. My tights are from Pretty Polly and I LOVE them, they don't tear, they don't drop down, they are the BEST TIGHTS EVER.

 


Earrings are basic gold hoops. Found some similar at New Look. Lipstick is an accessory just like any other, mine is from magnificent M.A.C and this particular shade is Ruby Woo. I love it !



My PU leather skirt ha become my staple item, day or night this skirt I the bomb got it over at New Look. Every girl should own a little PU.



Gorgeous fedora hat from Boohoo and my boots are Caterpillar willow boot.

This is a different shirt I wanted to try, I found it at a little thrift store in Willesden and it's Levi which is an extra bonus. I looked high and low for another like it and I found this little gem in Asos, which would be perfect.

 

Any basic white top can go for this look. My top is so old I don't actually remember where I got it but Boohoo have one just like it.





On a Mission

So yesterday I tried taking photos for my blog and LORD was it hard. Bad lighting , bad weather, bad shots?

One thing after another, and it got me wondering, am I the problem? Am I too fat or too ugly to take these photos, am I just a fat girl with a delusion? Should I just leave it to professionals like Nadia Aboulhosn? Is this a game I can't play? I really felt low about it and then I remembered why I'm doing this. I'm doing this so that girls everywhere can look at themselves and be happy; I'm doing this because I don't want other girls to go through what I did. Since my mum put me on my first diet telling me there is something wrong with my body, I haven't been able to be happy in my own skin. I do want to lose weight, but not because I don't think I'm beautiful, but because I want to be healthy. I want to be able to climb a set of stairs without needing a defibrillator half way there.
 
I've added some outtakes from the failed shoot, at least we can have a laugh.

Take 2 next week.
 
 
 
 





Kimono New Look ,Top Asos (I couldn't find the actual top I'm wearing as I bought this last year but here's a similar top that I have that I would've worn). Cuff New Look (not the same, but just as good). Rings New Look.



Skort Boohoo ,Tights Pretty Polly (I have to add that these are the most COMFORATBLE tights I have ever worn in my entire life. I <3 PP), Boots New Look.

Thinking out loud

I still haven't posted anything and it is bugging me like crazy! I have so many ideas and outfits I want to share but every time I try something gets in my way. Fashion and I have an interesting relationship, I have my days where I'll spend  hours meticulously putting a look together and other days where I say "fudge it" and throw on whatever I can find. Doesn't everybody? If I look good I feel good so I try my best to maintain upkeep but it's expensive, I'm not rolling around on big piles of money so I have to think. "That cute metallic dress from New Look or my phone bill?". Hard times. xoxo

Is anybody there?

I'm stepping into the blogosphere as I want to be out there, I want to reach as many people as a can. I want to let people into my life and more specifically my wardrobe. How I look represents how I feel. I can say so much about myself with an outfit so sharing my fashion with the world is just the outlet I need. A window into my mind.